Friday, October 30, 2009

Blessing – perspective by Kay - CWJC

It is God’s will for His people to be blessed. Walking in faith, paying your tithes is a great way to be blessed. Giving to others also will be a blessing for you. Ask the Lord for favor. Ask for favor to be blessed. It is a blessing living for our Lord Jesus Christ.

It is a blessing to be here at Christian Women’s Job Corps. Meeting new sisters in Christ at CWJC is a blessing. Praising and glorifying His Holy Name.

Power - Perspective by Reina

We need “Power” in all types of circumstances. Power to take care of self and accomplish things for others. We need “Power” to live and to do God’s will with His “Power.” Power is to have the mind and heart of doing right. Power is to have the things necessary to accomplish everything you need to do in life through God’s eyes.

There was a point in time in my life before coming to CWJC when I thought I had the power to live life to the fullest. Well, I thought wrong. If it were true, then where did we all come from? We came from Him, through Him, for Him and His power.

I use to be ignorant in thinking I had the power. There are a lot of ignorant people whom don’t know the truth about power, but let me tell you – the power we have is all from Him - our Father in Heaven. We need God’s power – in sorrow’s, in making decisions, when wounded by relationship, depressed, exhaustion and even in temptation and guilt. Our Lord, Jesus Christ, with His power rescues us from many ways. All we have to do is seek Him and we shall find Him.

Power is to have enough strength to accomplish all objects – good or bad in day to day life. The Lord’s Power protects us at all times, even when we sleep. Power is a very strong word. In life some people use the word “Power” in wrong ways. As an example: they feel they are above all, or better than others, abusing others for their own purpose of selfishness. The ignorant ones also use power for doing what they want, when they want, not caring how it hurts others. God’s Power brings up the ability of control in times of temptation. God empowers us to be filled with hope, love and faith so we will and can be saved from all sings and overcome the evil one.

It’s true God delights in revealing Himself to others around us by shining His power thought the cracks of our weaknesses. When we recognize our need for God’s Power, it will draw us closer.

God’s power and greatness are revealed in Scriptures and through His work in our life. When you sense a lack of power in your live, seek God for His Power.

Spiritual Power helps us accomplish God’s will. Possessing “Power” reveals important things about us. It is used in many ways. But, Power is to be used to do good, not for brutal purposes.

2 Timothy 1:7 (New Living Translation)
7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.


Prayer: God, how I need your power to live this life. Fill me with your Spirit. Infuse me with strength to accomplish your will today, tomorrow and Forever.” Amen!

Justice - Perspective by Krystal - CWJC



James 2:12-13 (New International Version)
12Speak and act as those who are going to be judged by the law that gives freedom, 13because judgment without mercy will be shown to anyone who has not been merciful. Mercy triumphs over judgment!

Justice is fair judgment in deciding a case that exacts the perfect punishment or award. Justice requires objective analysis, critical thinking and accountability. Justice is an attribute of God and can be an attribute of humans when they work through established governments and law.

Stand up for justice. You can do justice by righting some wrong in your family, job, or in your life. Prayer is a means of bringing justice to your world. I don’t judge anyone. Apparently some people always have judgment against me. I may say things that I regret but I never lie about what I say. There are so many people that judge but their judgment will come. Justice is sometimes wrong and sometimes right.

Some verses that I like:

“Do not judge lest you be judged.” Matthew 7:1

“Open your mouth, judge righteously, and defend the rights of the afflicted and needy.” Proverbs 31:9

“Do not judge by appearances, but judge by right judgment.” John 7:24

Prayer:
“God, help me know when I can work to bring justice to someone around me. Help me always to be fair. Thank you for showing your mercy and grace to me.” Amen



Faith - Perspective from Amanda - CWJC

I extend my endless gratitude to God, for despite my stubbornness, He has found a way to get me to this most perfect place and time. Life has been a struggle for me at times, but when I began listening to my heart, amazing things started happening.

It wasn’t too long ago that I was wandering through life without direction and without passion. I was stuck in an endless cycle of lack and unhappiness. I had job after job. I knew there had to be more to life, but had no idea how to find it. I felt like I had hit a dead-end; trapped in a life I didn’t want. In reality, it wasn’t a dead-end; it was merely a crossroads where the paths of happiness and unhappiness intersected. There was only one choice to make. I had to choose a new life. And although I was ready to venture into the unknown, the idea was still terrifying. I didn’t know where to start, so I did the only thing I could think of – I prayed. I didn’t have all the answers, but I had a starting point.

I knew I had to follow my dreams; no matter what. I had to quit fighting what my heart had been telling me for so long. So I gave up control and trusted God to help me figure it out. I completely changed my life in a very short period of time by praying and having FAITH in GOD. And, it was all easier than I expected. When I quit fighting my dreams, I quit fighting God, and found this place my heart had been trying to guide me to for so long.

Today, I continue to follow my dreams and walk the path of happiness every day – picking dreams that grow like wildflowers along the way. And each day when I return, I find new dreams blossoming right where I picked the last ones. Amazing!

Nowadays, I have a better sense of where I’m headed. I ask God for guidance when I am unsure and He always says the same thing, “Listen to your heart. The rest will come.”
Thank you, God.

Friday, October 2, 2009

Truth - perspective from Veronica


Truth – that which is considered to be the supreme reality and to have the ultimate meaning of value or existence.

John 14:6 I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the father except through me.

I do believe we as children of God have to sacrifice ourselves to live in God’s truth.

Romans 12:1 Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God.

Psalm 25:4-5
4 Show me your ways, O LORD,

teach me your paths;
5 guide me in your truth and teach me,
for you are God my Savior,
and my hope is in you all day long.


Walking in God’s truth means courage for integrity and honesty in your inmost parts. God’s word provides truth, answers to the meaning of life and who God is!
There’s a little way to know truth apart from God’s Word. It stands as an objective source with God himself as the standard. God’s truth must sink into your mind, your soul and sprit for it to affect your life choices. There’s a right way to handle God’s truth. You need to be called to account.

Forgiveness – perspective from Vannessa


Forgiveness is a debt cancelled, letting go of your right to be angry or vengeful

I always thought of “forgiveness” as a gift, to be able to forgive and forget. The world wouldn’t be what it is today. I, myself, have issues involving forgiveness. I have always found my way around forgiving someone. You just don’t want to give someone the satisfaction/or pleasure of your hurt and pain. Not being able to forgive has side effects and they can begin to effect you emotionally and physically. Holding on to anger, resentment and hurt only gives you tense muscles, a headache and a sore jaw from clenching your teeth. This is what we go through because of one’s negative input or wrong doings.

As it says in Luke 23:34: Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.” I go by each day not knowing who seeks forgiveness from me. So this eleven letter word has really been an eye opener for me. Instead of expecting forgiveness, we should also give forgiveness because we are also sinners.

We all have a perfect role model (God) who has forgiveness of us for our sins. I see forgiveness as a godly solution. He doesn’t involve vengeance like we do.

Anger – Perspective from Alicia – CWJC

My topic today is “Anger.”
Definition of anger is a feeling of being very annoyed and wanting to fight back at a person or thing that hurts one or is against one. Anger is the general word for the feeling of displeasure mixed with a desire to fight back.

Now about myself:
When I started coming here, I had so much anger about so many things especially towards life for so many mistakes. I felt that God was not there for me when I needed him the most. But I have learned that He has been with me all the time.

Most of my anger started when I was at the shelter. Seeing so many women beat up with black eyes. Kids hurt or raped by their own father. That’s when I said to myself that is not going to happen to me or my kids. So I learned to defend myself without thinking or knowing my wrongs, especially when it came to men. If I would have been asked to write bout anger before I started coming here, I would have pages and pages about all of the anger that I had inside of me. And I am happy to say “had the anger,” because part of that that anger is gone.

My anger was to the point of hurting verbally, physical and throwing and breaking whatever it was in my way. I once threw a punch to a mirror and broke it with my fist. My kids were so scared and they started crying and I promised them that I was going to look for help. But at the same time I didn’t feel I needed help without realizing how much I was hurting my kids and how much I was hurting myself.

There are so many reasons for having anger inside of us. But it is not worth it. Having this anger only takes us into depression, low self-esteem. It makes us feel sorry about ourselves, not wanting to do anything.

So, it is time to leave this anger behind. I have learned to control my anger, how to say what I have to say without hurting the other person. If that doesn’t work, I just pray to God to help me to release my anger and to help me think before saying anything. I am accepting God back into my life. It is sad to say, that I had left God behind me a few years ago, but now that He is back into my life, I feel great. I feel peace in my heart and from now on, no matter what, I will never leave my God again.

So for each one of us, please leave your anger behind. It does not help you in anyway.

Commitment – Perspective from Michelle


It may seem like an easy topic, although in the past I didn’t understand its significance. I now see the word “commitment” in a new light even though I stuck my neck out by choosing this topic. If you think about it a lot of honor goes with the feeling of someone who commits to someone or something that is worthy. Sometimes the concept is overwhelming for anyone. But maybe that is because we’re too are on ourselves. I know I still am.

For me, commitment is a realization of one’s responsibilities and the will to carry them out. A lot of times, I don’t feel strong enough or smart enough, but then I’m sure that is where God comes in. You see, a year and a half ago, I was warped with depression feeling unworthy to even live. But God gave me the strength to stand up when standing is hard. I’ll never stop needing Him.

A good example of commitment is motherhood. A mother commits to taking care of her children, her home and going to work. Now, that’s what I call a full-time job. Commitment requires dedication and to me that means through rain, sleet or snow; good or bad. Another example is the Christian Women’s Job Corps and their students. Since we have committed to this cause, I know God will see us all the way to completion.

The last example is a broken commitment. As I have experienced, any time marriage vows are broken or someone lets you down or betrays you, it can take a long time to get over. It can sometimes change your whole outlook on life. Just give it to God!

In conclusion, you must see your potential despite your past failures. Nobody’s perfect, no not one. So just because we have unfulfilled commitments in the past doesn’t mean we can’t fulfill our commitment for the future.

Worry - Perspective by Reina - CWJC


This is the beginning of a worried life. It all started when I was a little girl, age 8. I had to grow up so quickly that I became a mother to my younger siblings, newborn up to age 5-6. That’s when life began all my worries. Cleaning diapers, bottle feeding, bathing, dressing, cooking, cleaning, even ironing clothes and doing my school work. But more importantly, I worried about the children getting hurt or crying, because I would also get in trouble for them crying or getting hurt. Then at night I worried about my mother getting beat up by my drunken father. I worried if I had to run and hide with the children. I also worried about my mother if she had a chance to escape or if she was badly hurt. As a child, life was full of worries. It wasn’t even funny.

My worries would even bring me down into tears and anger. I t made me vulnerable, worthless. It drowned me and made me bitter and sour. It also made me feel old, weak and incapable of fixing the problems. Years have past and that part of my life stayed as memories. Not it’s not my siblings or my mother that I worry about; it’s my children. I worry about them getting hurt, sick broken bones, their safety, getting in trouble and even about death. I always felt a need to worry. I worried about things around me, people around me, my finances, money problems, fears and danger.

Then one morning in mid-August I went to CWJC to put in an application and was welcomed as a student. I was also excited and never felt happier. Doors began to open and I told myself it’s time for a change. I stopped worrying about when I was going to get the money to pay for my next cigarette and beer. I stopped worrying because I quit smoking and drinking and I feel proud of myself, because I started doing right. That was just two of the first things I wanted to change. Then I thought to myself, “Why do I worry if life is still here and so am I?” So I took a deep breath and told myself, “Listen to your hear and relax. Just put faith in Jesus and things will become better.” So they did.

I stopped worrying about everything. The Lord made them – the worries – disappear. I take life day by day. Now I have faith in someone whom I thought never was there to listen. He made my worries run dry because He guards my heart, mind and spirit.

That’s why I don’t worry anymore!

Friday, September 25, 2009

Patience – perspective by Lorena -CWJC


May God give me patience for I know in my heart that is what I need.


  • Patience for circumstances when things get tough and that I may have the knowledge to figure things out without feeling frustrated or mad.

  • Patience when I seem to be failing no matter how hard I try. I ask that He somehow encourage me and doesn’t let me give up.

  • Patience for what seems impossible to accomplish, for it may take time to handle my troubles each day as they may come.

  • Patience to stop and care for my children, to show them unconditional love, to listen to their innocent little hearts, not feel anger, but instead talk, patiently wait until they become calm.


God is patient. He has hope for me, for He loves and knows that I am not perfect, but in His eyes, He sees no imperfections. We are all His children, His creation, His beautiful masterpiece.

Healing – perspective by Kay – CWJC – September 2009


God’s Healing Hands

He has hands that will carry you like the wind. His touch is soft as a napkin. He has arms that will hold you so tight. His hands will heal the nation’s body and soul.


Pray to God and with His unchanging hands he will heal you. This is healing where your body is free from pain or any disease.
Healing comes with a touch of God’s healing hands.

Lay hands on yourself. Ask God to take control. Using blessing oil is a way to connect with and ask God for healing.

He will heal and restore your health.
Isaiah 53:5But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.
1 Peter 2:24Who his own self bare our sins in his own body on the tree, that we, being dead to sins, should live unto righteousness: by whose stripes ye were healed.


Friday, September 11, 2009

Destiny by Gloria


CWJC - September 2009
Destiny – It’s God’s purpose and His plan for my life.

Fulfilling your destiny is not for your enjoyment. That’s what makes you a part of God’s greater plan.

Destiny will mold your life into a work of art and a beautiful showcase for His Glory – not yours. God’s destiny for you is to work out your thoughts here on earth.

It is the abilities God give you and the desire he stirs up in you. There are certain things and people He brings along to you. Destiny is anything God leads you to do.

God is your final destination! He knows the plans He has for you so he will lead you toward your purpose with people who cross your path.

Listen for His voice, ideas and dreams so that no matter what you will remember them.

It’s like God calling your name and saying “Come be with Me. I have something to tell you….”

So, I say to my sisters, “Invite God into your life today. He knows your plan and purpose. He is the Destiny.”

Friday, May 1, 2009

What size is your world? (Pastor Carl's Email)

A long time ago one of my mentors taught me a very prodigious truth. “If you allow someone else to create your world for you they will always create it too small.” Each of us constructs the world we live in by the choices we make and the words we speak. Solomon said, “Death and life are in the power of the tongue” (Proverbs 18:21), and Joshua said, “Choose YOU this day…” (Joshua 24:15).

Unwittingly, people allow others to construct their world by permitting them to make choices for them and then shape their conversations around those choices.

You are not who others say you are. You are not who you say you are. But you are who God says you are. Wise men and women make God-informed choices about their life and future based on God’s Word and then carefully align their beliefs, practices and conversations around those choices.

Oh, by the way, God’s created world hasn’t stop expanding at the speed of light since He first spoke, “Let there be light…”

Just a thought,

Carl Toti
Senior Pastor
Trinity Church

CWCJ - Forgiveness - Class Perspective


Forgiveness frees the soul. It is a route to healing. Forgiveness is a release of pain and hurt. It brings you to acceptance. When you forgive, it’s like a smile that says you’re going to be alright.

Forgiveness is God’s way of showing us how much He loves us. It is like a big hug and you feel a tear that flows down to a river. It is a touch of giving.

Forgiveness is a choice. We have to choose to forgive – over and over and over again. We can’t go by feelings. Because it is a choice that we may have to do many times – forgiveness becomes a process. It is a process to wholeness.

Friday, April 24, 2009

CWCJ - Healing - Perspective by Mary


This word means so many things. It’s a wonderful word. It’s a happy word because whether your healing is physical or spiritual, it’s never the less a healing from above. From our Lord Jesus Christ whose will is for no man to lose himself but to live eternally. I have received both of the above physical and spiritual healings, of which I am eternally grateful.
For me, it began when I surrendered all and opened my heart in this small town in a small house having a prayer meeting that I responded and forgave and I was released from my bondage and made free.
I like to call that – Mercy and forgiveness in action. You begin to be at Peace with yourself and others.
In my life forgiveness plays a very important part in my healing. I say, “Forgive, as though your life depends on it because it does.” God calls us to forgive one another, encourage one another.
But what I realize was that when I forgave, my healing took place. Thanks to God and to God be the glory, that all the members of our body are indeed connected as one. When we don’t forgive we carry baggage. This weights our body down, causing illness and disease. Many things cause this - anger, depression, bitterness, pride, unforgiveness, etc…
Some healings take longer than others depending on the type of healing taking place. Some are a process of forgiving yourself and learning and growing in Christ, to forgive our enemies or those who have hurt us deeply.
Jesus asked “What reward is it in loving those that love you?” But to love those who have injured you, who wall against you? I recall Paul asking the Christ to take dagger from his side more than once. But Christ did not answer every time. Sometimes there was no answer.
Some times Christ allows this very thing to draw us near to Him and teach us and help us grow.
Also in healing, you have your bad days and good. But you will begin to have more good days your healing is taking over.
I reflect on the healing that took place for out friends Manuel the young man who lost his battle with his liver, yet he received a greater healing from the soul. He gave his life to Christ. He repented and realized where real life and healing begins, in the soul. He died in Victory, to see Christ his personal savior Lord and King.
Christians Woman’s Job Corps has been the essence of all this healing for me. I so thank God for all his connection pulling all this together for me. Because here I have grown and learned.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

CWJC - Encouragement - Perspective by Amber


Sometimes I go through life just wishing I could help, be a good encourager, but I just don’t really know where to begin.

It really didn’t soak in on how people in my family felt about me until one day I was invited to go on a women’s retreat, not knowing what was going to be going on up there. That weekend I had heard some awesome and sad stories that the other Christian sisters had shared with all of us. Just listening to all of their stories and how God gave them and their families the encouragement to handle what was put in front of them, made me know that everything that I am going through is just a drop of water in the bucket. And if they can still call out His name and have faith that He will still be there to help encourage them, then I, too, can call on Him for some encouragement. That night before the retreat was over the counselors had us go into the dining room where there were no lights on except for two red lights that were shining down onto a cross with a purple cloth around the base of it. We all found at our tables three black pieces of paper. There was a lady from the back that said the reason that the papers were black was to hide what our sins were from one another, because no one needs to know what my sins were except myself and God. And then we were to write down what our sins were. When we got all finished writing down everything we were to all told to go line up behind one another. There we were given a hammer and a nail. The reason for the hammer and the nail was because we were to hammer our sins up on to the cross and give them up to Him.

As it got to be my turn to nail the papers, it was so hard for me. Because I was not only hammering up so many pieces of paper, but I was also putting myself in the shoes of the soldier that put those nails into our Savior. Do you really understand how hard it was for me to take that hammer and nail and to hit the cross until the paper was stuck up there?

Just when I thought it was all over with the ladies from the back asked us if we would have a seat at the tables once more. There they had a stack of letters for each one of us. As I started to open them up one by one, one of them I had picked up and started to read was from my son. It read,

You are my favorite mom because
1. You are nice
2. You read me stories
3. You let me stay up late
4. You always comfort me
5. You love and care for me.

And if that wasn’t encouragement enough, I found one of them from my brother. He just tells how he was really glad that he had a chance to grow up with me. He also said that the thing he liked about me the most was that with me being so strong in Christ, I have taught my son about the greatest Dad that we serve.

I just then realized that I am encouraging the ones around me. Not by what I say but by how I live my life everyday.

CWJC - Suffering & Blessing - Perspective from Julie


Suffering:
I sit here crying and asking God, “Why? Why do people have to suffer?” Brian is our nephew. He is very sick. He is in such pain. He has lots of things connected to him. He can’t even breathe on his own. Next to Brian is a baby that keeps on crying. He was burned so badly! Why? Why did my son get stabbed 12 times? I do not wish bad to any of the boys who did this to my son, but why does my son have to suffer? I don’t understand. Why do we have to suffer?


Blessing:
A Blessing is to know God! I never understood why people have to suffer, but now I know it’s because of the choices we make. And the choices we make are not the best. If we will just trust in God, not just when we are in need. If we could treat people the way we want to be treated. Open our hearts and tell the word of God to one another, the world would be so much better. We all have been Blessed with things but are not pleased, we want more, or think we need more, but as long as we have God in our lives we don’t need anything else. Knowing God is the biggest Blessing! He will always be with you. When we die we won’t hurt, suffer, or be sick anymore. So just believe and open your hearts and receive the Lord, you will have the best Blessing ever!

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

WALKING THE DOG

A woman was flying from Seattle to San Francisco . Unexpectedly, the plane was diverted to Sacramento. Along the way, the flight attendant explained that there would be a delay, and if the passengers wanted to get off the aircraft the plane would re-board in 50 minutes. Everybody got off the plane except one lady in the back row who was blind.
The man had noticed her as he looked back and could tell the lady was blind because her Seeing Eye Dog lay quietly underneath the seats in front of her through out the entire flight. He could also tell she had flown this very flight before because the pilot approached her, and calling her by name, said, 'Kathy, we are in Sacramento for almost An hour. Would you like to get off and stretch your legs?' The blind lady replied, 'No thanks, but maybe Buddy would like to stretch his legs.' So, the pilot took Buddy off the plane for a walk.All the people in the gate area came to a complete standstill when they looked up and saw the pilot walk off the plane with a Seeing Eye dog! The pilot was even wearing sunglasses. People scattered. They not only tried to change planes, but they were trying to change airlines!True story.. Have a great day and remember...
...THINGS AREN'T ALWAYS AS THEY APPEAR.

A DAY WITHOUT LAUGHTER IS A DAY WASTED

Friday, April 3, 2009

Perspective - Commitment & Submit - by Teresa



This is a story about me, the changes I’ve made and are still making. This is about COMMITMENT. Which means a promise made to someone or to ones self that can’t be broken without consequences.
As this story goes I’m a person who in my years in the past had a hard time making commitments to myself or others.
I would make promises and couldn’t keep them due to something or someone always having me to go back on my word because I was weak and didn’t know how to say “no.” Another word for that is to SUBMIT. That means to give in to the wishes of someone or to please them because you think you’re obligated to.
I would always push my needs and wants to take care of everyone else. But when the time came for someone to help me or to be there for me, no one had the time for me.
So through the years I’ve learned slowly to be more aggressive and to say “no” often enough. My commitments weren’t still being met. I was still submitting myself to everyone’s needs but my own.
So here about 3 years ago, I said to myself, “Enough was enough!” I finally took a stand and said “NO.” It’s taken me this long to get to where I am now.
I finally did something good in my life. I made a turn for myself, something I never knew possible.
One of the big steps I’ve taken is to come here to Christian Women’s Job Corp. I was nervous and afraid because I didn’t know if I could commit to such a big step. Afraid that something or someone will cause me to be weak and submit to other people’s needs and pushing my own aside, again.
I would drive down the street back and forth. I walked up to the front door, and almost turned around and walked away, when suddenly, something stop me. I thought, “What am I doing? Taking this step would be the greatest thing for my kids and I to have a better life, not to be afraid of anything anymore. “
So you know what? I did it! I’m here and learning. Meeting wonderful teachers who are so awesome! I never thought people like them existed.
The women, who attend this wonderful school, have been through a lot and are here. It’s great to have them as friends. I haven’t had friends in such a long time.
I’m so happy that I made the decision to come here. The best thing that have crossed my path in years. But I owe this not only to the strength and courage of taking that first step through those doors. God pushed me and guided me here. So now, I’m committed on doing the best for my kids, myself, for anyone who crosses my path that I can be a blessing to.
I will no longer submit for the wrong reasons. But I will submit to obey God, the father, the king, the leader, because I cannot do anything, and I cannot be anyone special without him in my life.
And I believe I will make it through.

Monday, March 16, 2009

CWJC – Anger – Perspective by Mary


This emotion to me is a very powerful emotion from injury done deep within the soul. When you are injured, the first reaction is to be angry, followed by hurt. If left unattended, the anger may cause further damage.

Many years I played the role of being angry, growing up in a world of abuse, fights and fear. I learned to play my role well. But I longed for love, for someone to care for me and to be nourished like a child should be. I would often call on God, but I really didn’t know why because I didn’t know Him. I just did. Now I know He was always there. Being constantly provoked by those who were supposed to love and take care of me, I just didn’t understand why some one would not help me.

Being young and unaware of many things, I went through life this way. This is what you’ve been taught. The woman who had me and the man she lived with hurt me every day. They were very angry people to begin with.

But something inside of me kept calling to this God that I just didn’t know. But I had always heard that He loved everybody and I wanted Him to love me. Aware that this was indeed wrong, justice became a very important word in my vocabulary. Unable to forgive, I was growing up like my abusers. Anger was killing me like a cancer eating one from the inside out. This strong emotion of displeasure became a way of life for me.

When you’ve been provoked to so many emotions, you feel misunderstood. And the need to be understood, to explain yourself, causes you to over react and at times to lose control. It’s hard not understanding that people just can’t see the whole picture. How could they? And again this causes you to be misunderstood and once again angered. You begin to understand and accept that this is just the way it is for me.

But still this God kept surfacing within me. I just didn’t understand or know why.

Then one day after many invitations and many no’s. I finally said “yes” only if they promised never to ask me again. Little did I know that that evening I was going to meet that God that kept popping up. He filled me that night with fire and I felt that I could fly. Something was lifted off and I felt so light. I could not stop crying. The more I tried, the harder I cried. My Catholic friend kept telling me, “You’ve received.” But I had no idea what she was talking about.

I remember the next day, the birds were singing like many times before, only this time I could hear them. The world looked different. But, how could it? It was the same world I had always known.

I walked up to my mother and I told her I love you and everybody. She looked at me as if I had lost my mind. But I’d never been more sane. I told her I met Jesus and He lives in my heart forever and He could live in her heart. She began to cry and she held me for the first time in my life that I can remember.

And, so you see, anger, it’s just a word that you don’t have to live with. And it’s something that can change. Jesus can give love, peace and joy all the days of my life, and yours. Because He lives and there’s no one like Him. He’s my Lord, Savior, and the King of Kings. Sometimes I remember how He was always there, I just did not know. And He teaches and guides you every step of the way.
Mary
March 13, 2009

CWJC - Persistence - Perspective by Alicia

My day has come when all I have is my will from today till tomorrow. The tension between my “today” and my “tomorrow” sometimes frightens me because I contemplate too many tomorrows.

I can always imagine the worst about my finances and illnesses that tomorrow might bring. All of my energies have become divided between the process of living for now and the fear of my tomorrows. I feel as thought I have forgotten that I have a Heavenly Father to whom I can cast all of my tomorrows. In II Corinthians 12:9, He has promised me His grace. “My Grace is sufficient for you.” So what I need to do is to be persistent and seek Him first. Call out to Him. Cry out to Him in prayer.

So, yes, as of today, I will cast my todays and tomorrows to Him that will make it right. I will be of great persistence and will not give up hope even when others with less hope have given up on me. I will make the best out of any existence and learn to live a more abundant life that God has promised me. For He loves me so much that He was willing to give His Son, Jesus Christ, in order that I might be able to make the best out of my life. From now on, I will not question what life is all about. Instead I will work on how I can make my life worthwhile. This way I can find some of the happiness that others seem to be having, while serving the One and only One, God, the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit.

I sometimes feel like the man in John 5:6 where Jesus asked him, “Do you want to be healed?” The man’s answer was not a clear yes, but instead a complaint. “I have no one to put me in the pool,” he answered. I, too, feel that when Jesus asked me if I will just cast my todays and tomorrows on Him, I forget to recognize the divine Power in Jesus words.

Maybe it is not what I have done, but instead of who I am. Perhaps it’s now even my withered limbs, so much as my withered spirit. Now Jesus has said that His Father is still working and that He, too, is still working in verse 16. Both are still working with the withered spirit of the ungrateful and the unknowing. And, yes, I feel like God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit is still working with my body which is easy to be cured, and, my spirit which is more difficult to cure.

So, I think that I know that I do need to get right with my Father and seek Him with persistence so that I can receive His promises that are written in His Book, the Holy Bible.
I once heard someone say that God gave us gifts, and that we are to give back, too.

Have no fear for the gifts you give
But the gifts you dare withhold
In a world that needs your helping hand
Your heart, your life, and your gold.

Alicia
March 13, 2009

CWJC - Loyalty - Perspective from Amber



What is loyalty really? When I think of loyalty, I think of a dog and his master. The dog hearing his master say “Come here, Dog.” and it comes to him. Not because the dog fears his master, but for the reason that the dog loves him and wants to please him.

For how are we like the dog and his master? Let’s see. We want as well to be a loyal servant to our own master. But we show it in many different ways. But all in all we are loyal for how we treat others when no one is around, showing that we are Christians. That is how I feel that I can be loyal towards my Savior and family and friends.

Amber
March 13, 2009

Monday, March 9, 2009

CWJC - Thankfulness - Persective from Alicia


Thankfulness for Following my New Destiny – Wherever it Leads Me

There comes a time in my life when I realize that if I stand still, I will remain at this point forever. I realize that if I fall and stay down, life will pass by me. Life’s circumstances are not always what I might wish them to be.
The pattern of my life does not necessarily go as I plan it. Beyond any understanding I may at times be led in different directions that I never imagined, dreamed or designed. Yet, if I had never put any effort into choosing a path, or tried to carry out my dream, than perhaps I would have no direction at all.


Rather than wondering about or questioning the direction my life has taken, I choose to accept the fact that there is a path before me now. Shake off the "why’s" and "what if’s." “Was” is in the past. “Whatever is” is what is important. The past is a brief reflection. The future is yet to be realized. Today is here. I will walk my path one step at a time – with courage, faith and determination. I will keep my head up, and cast all my dreams up to my Lord.


And soon my steps will become firm. A path that I never imagined will be the most comfortable direction I could have ever hoped to follow. I’ll keep my belief in God and walk into my new journey. I will find it magnificent, spectacular, and beyond my wildest imaginings.
And for that I am full of Gratefulness to my Lord and Father God.


Alicia
March 6, 2009

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Surviving the Storm

Last Sunday, our pastor taught from Mark 4:35-41. This is the story where Jesus is asleep in the boat and a storm comes up on the Sea of Galilee. The disciples went down and found Jesus asleep with his head on a pillow. They shouted, "Teacher do You not care that we are perishing?"
That was their perspective. We are perishing!!!! Jesus had such a different perspective. He spoke to the sea, "Peace, be still" And the wind ceased and there was a great calm.

It seems in these challenging, fightening times, we need to hear His words for our own lives. "Peace, be still."

Isaiah 43:2 (NKJ) "When you pass though the waters, I will be with you, And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, Nor shall the flame scorch you."

As Pastor Toti pointed out, it says "When" ... not "IF." We will walk through the waters and storms and fire. But HE will be with us.

Friday, January 23, 2009

Tiny Michelle


Michelle is the tiniest baby I have ever seen. At almost 24 months she weighs less than 8 pounds. But she is perfectly proportioned and maturing intellectually. She can laugh and tease with the best of toddlers. She lives with Kendon and Wendy Wheeler at New Life Children's Home in Guatemala.
At her tiny size, can you imagine what her perspective on the world must be? Obviously we are all giants, but she knows she is safe and loved and that makes everything okay.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Vantage Point

We watched a movie called "Vantage Point" with Dennis Quad. All three of us were totally caught up in the story. It tells the story of the President's assasination from different viewpoints. And keeps going back 23 minutes to show it over and over from someone else's perspective.

Too bad we don't have that option in life.